Value who YOU are.

We live in a world where our influences shape who we are. As a 17 year old girl growing up in todays society, I am surrounded by magazines, television and music telling me what I should wear, which diet I should be trying, how I should act around boys, etc. I am a victim to it, but luckily, not in a huge sense. I have a grip on myself and reality. I have learnt to do and buy what I like, not what others would like me to. I don’t fall into a category, I am just me. I’ve created my own category for myself and my laid back, casual style and I’m happy with it.

There are however those who are younger, who aren’t so lucky. I see every year younger and younger girls, all looking the same. They do this because they think then they’ll be able to “fit in”. Fit into what though? Some sort of invisible social circle that has been created by ‘popular’ teens. A circle that you can only enter if you look and act a certain way. I see girls acting around boys so desperately and ‘cool’ just to get attention. Of course I don’t know these people, but they all just seem the same. Same clothes, same hair styles, etc. What are their actual personalities? Where is their individuality?

Maybe one day they’ll find it. Maybe some of the lucky ones will break away, find themselves and be there own person. Many others won’t though, they will continue to lead their lives based on how others tell them they should. You shouldn’t need to have to dress a certain way, act a certain way or weigh a certain weight to be friends with somebody, and if they think that you should, then they obviously aren’t a good friend to you. Value and appreciate your life, and live the way you want to, not how they want you to.

Perfection.

Seriously, what the fuck even is perfection, and where do I sign up? Is it happiness? Is it made up? Do we make up our own perfection? Please someone, someone please fucking tell me, because I’m just a bit confused as to what to do. How can something be perfect? Who determines this?

My Room

I think around and all I see it mess. Does this mess reflect on my life right now? My room gets cleaned when I feel upbeat and proactive, never when I’m in a low, unsteady state. I’ve never even thought of this before, but looking around, seeing the chaos that could be easily fixed, but that I just leave as mess to clean up later. My room is a reflection of me, not quite tidy, no where near perfect. But it has character and style, it shows off my books, photos and trophies, the things I value most.

What will be, will be.

No matter what happens, whatever the outcome, I will survive. I am healthy, I am lucky, I am happy.
In 5 years time I won't remember specifically how I went in these exams or what I did during exams. I will get the results I deserve, and those results will carry me to where I am meant to go, what I am meant to do.
There will be more important things in my life than exams. Of course I would like to do well, and I will, if I study.

What will be, will be.

Swot Vac

I feel as though I could do my exams today and be happy with them, which is a really good thing, and I'm really proud of myself for working so hard for these last few weeks, and in general, over the year. I've created goals, made lists and persisted (mostly) with getting everything done. Now I have 2 days left of school left, then it's up to me how I spend my time.

A week is a VERY long time. I can get so much done, which I'm pleased about because it means I won't be stressed and rushing when it comes to exam time. I have a good exam timetable, good study techniques and will have the house to myself forthe majority of the time.

I'm faced with the problem now though of what to focus on. Ideally I would to divide my time evenly, but I'm sitting on better marks for some subjects then others. I would rather do really well in 2 subjects, than do average in all four of my subjects, one of which I know is basically impossible for me to get an EA at this stage. I've decided I'm going to study the most for Sport Science and Japanese, but I'll definitely give time to English and I'll study about 45 min of maths a day.

I'm so ready for it.
Swot Vac is awesome.

EXAMS - COME AT ME

If I won the lottery...

http://au.pfinance.yahoo.com/money-manager/real-estate/article/-/10933593/1-billion-home-in-india-empty-because-of-superstition/

If I won the lottery, I would give most of the money away.

I know it's easy to say that, but I know I actually would. I realise right now how fortunate a life I already lead, if I were to receive a large amount of money, only a small amount of it would be needed to make my life more comfortable. So many people in this world are so disadvantaged, so many are living in poverty, and it just isn't right. Everyone should have access to clean water, food, healthcare, clothing and a roof over their heads. These are things I myself take for granted, and I'm sure many of you do too.

When I read the article in the link I've posted above, I was mortified. Not because of the fact that the family aren't even moving into this house, but about the fact that this house was even built. This is a husband and wife with three children. The same as my family. Out house contains 5 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, living room, dining room, kitchen, laundry, study and nice backyard. We are so fortunate to have what we have and live in this house. This family are going to be living in a house with 27 FLOORS. It is the most unnecessary thing I have ever seen.

India is a country currently struck down with poverty, and yet India's richest man spends his 27 billion fortune on himself and his family. Of course people are entitled to do whatever they want with their money, but I just can't move past how out of place and ridiculous this house is.

The world is so unjust

Millions of people are dying in the world because they can't afford food, water, sanitation and healthcare.
Actors and actresses are being paid millions to star in movies, for our entertainment.

Seriously?